September 14

My birthday is a big deal to me. I believe that the day I was born has really shaped my personality, so in order to prove my theory I decided to do a google search about personality traits of people born on September 14th. This is what I found:

• People born on September 14 are typically the first port of call when others want to find a solution or understand a situation better. Their critical abilities, creativity and problem-solving skills are exceptional and, because they are not afraid to rock the boat, uncover the underlying causes and tell it like it is, they have a reputation for being innovative and progressive thinkers.(Courtesy of birthdaypersonality.tumblr.com/post/6232300156/14-september-the-birthday-of-the-problem-solver)
• Compromises or half-way solutions are not in their vocabulary and their goal is always to work for improvement. Although their ability to evaluate and suggest ways to improve can make them powerful agents of change and progress, it can also earn them a number of enemies because one skill they need to finetune is tact. They don’t mean to offend other people; quite the opposite, as they often have the best interests of others at heart. It is just that they are so insightful, straightforward and direct that they don’t understand that sometimes people aren’t ready to hear the blunt, unadorned truth; they need it to be sugar coated or revealed subtly. (Courtesy of http://birthdaypersonality.tumblr.com/post/6232300156/14-september-the-birthday-of-the-problem-solver)
• Virgos born on September 14 embody the spirit of Virgo perfectionism and criticism. These complex and demanding people can be difficult to live with, but no one can doubt their sincerity. They have a humanitarian streak and always like to make an important contribution to society through their work or life-efforts. (Courtesy of http://tlc.howstuffworks.com/family/september-14-birthday-astrology.htm)
• September 14 individuals believe in doing a good job. They constantly aspire to perfection and feel insecure about their efforts if they fall short of that mark. One of their goals is to harmonically balance their professional and personal sides of their lives. This is a difficult achievement, yet the people born on this day try hard to make it possible.
• Strengths: observant, effective, efficient; Weaknesses: critical, difficult, impatient (Courtesy of http://fuckyeahvirgos.tumblr.com/post/10195909628/the-september-14th-personality-the-day-of-the)

I can honestly say that all of those these traits and characteristics describe me. It gives me insight into why I don't get along with certain types of people. I'm just too blunt and critical for people to like. On the flip side, I love to be creative, I care deeply for humanity, and I want to change the world. Clearly I have a personality that people either love or hate, and I've learned to accept that.

Now I need to go read about my husband's birthday traits to figure out how he could fall in love with someone like me.

Road to Recovery

Those of you who keep up with my blog know that I stated that I was healed a few weeks ago. I still claim my healing, but the road to recovery is still a long one.

My past rape traumas no longer control my life, but every now and then the PTSD and depression creep back up when triggered by new situations.

I hate the feeling of anxiety and being on high alert all of the time. Once the anxiety starts, my depression comes right along to remind me how much of a loser I am for being so anxious. It's a really bad combination and I'm really trying not to be buried by these feelings.

Pray for me...